Have you ever had this feeling, for me it sits in my belly, and it emits this sensation like something is not right. I have relentlessly tired to distract myself, relieve it with all the best lotions, essential oils, vacations, etc. But nothing works. And then you are confronted with the fact that you have been ignoring the call of your soul. She calls softly, asking you to participate. She isn’t interested in a hidden agenda or pleasures, she only wants participation. Participation in what you ask? Well that depends on your story and the essence of you. For me, it seems like working with younger girls is part of my dharma and actually just connecting with people in general. When I participate in these activities I wake up, and realize that previous feeling is gone. Instead a feeling of contentment fuels my body, give me purpose. I see this goal I am working towards, or maybe more so I understand my commitment to life. To what I am offering. It is worth the work, worth the uncomfortable times, because the results are irreplaceable. This work gives purpose to my days. Allows me to keep going when life’s hardships weigh at my heart.
Like a farmer who carries on with his duties even in the freezing rain. He understands his commitment to the animals and land. He knows that there is suffering involved. But it’s worth it. One of my favorite bloggers Mark Manson speaks of Dharma, though he never uses the word in his article The Most Important Question Of Your Life. He writes, “A more interesting question, a question that perhaps you’ve never considered before, is what pain do you want in your life? What are you willing to struggle for? Because that seems to be a greater determinant of how our lives turn out. That answer will actually get you somewhere. It’s the question that can change your life. It’s what makes me me and you you. It’s what defines us and separates us and ultimately brings us together..” This question encouraged him to find work where the struggle was calculated into the equation and deemed a worthy. That is the modern man speaking of Dharma. As someone in my mid twenties, the search for my purpose has ruled my past couple of years. A mixture of exploration, disappointment, opening, and closing. And so I continue on this journey. Calling on the universal truth, cultivating the seeds that bring light into my days.